My kid got sick and was puking. I jumped at the chance to take some PTO to take a day off. It was a welcome distraction. I fell asleep on the couch holding her while she watched kids shows. That’s about all I could bring myself to do. I don’t have much left in me anymore. Just gotta take care of the kids and be ready to leave the country.

I just keep asking myself, “What are you supposed to do when your country falls into fascism?”

But even more so, I’m heartbroken for my distant relatives and everyone else in Ukraine.

Please, Europe–don’t let them fall.

I feel like we might need to radicalize, in a sense, if you know what I mean.

but of course it won’t happen. because we’re not like them, and we can’t do that

What went wrong: the dnc. Running first biden, then harris. The two representative of a historically disliked administration. Not strictly their (harris/bidens) fault minus a few critical bits.

• you cant run a left wing campaign by swinging to the right
• you cant run a left wing campaign with no policies for the working class. No taxes on tips? Wtf is that? We already dont pay taxes on tips. 50k to start your own business? how many Americans do that? Fucking seriously? How about: minimum pto, minimum sick leave? Health care reform. How about taking fucking companies and china to task? She wouldnt even commit to keeping khan.
• you can’t run a campaign with a corporate carpet bagger and expect results.
• you cant run a campaign on abortion alone. Im sorry ladies, I fully support you in this but many others including women dont. when many states already protect you its not a deciding factor for harris. Congressional positions yes. But not presidential.

Harris expected people to fall in line with no incentives, because… Trump. And went out of her way to disenfranchise a minority group. Shrug hopefully the counting continues and Harris’ manages to surprise us.

I’m broken. I’m so tired of it and now I fear it’s really all over. It’s not 4 years, it’s a revelation. We really are full of irredeemable hateful idiots. I’m not ok. I fear for our queer brothers and sisters. I fear for our families and neighbors. For our future livelihoods.

I’m afraid we’re not all gonna make it out of this.

I don’t know if this is the tipping point. But it feels like a mountain has fallen, in my heart. I want to crawl away. When I was just getting myself together. These next four years will be hell on earth for me. I’m going back on my meds

The heartbreak is such that today I feel like I want to give up on the entire concept of caring for others as a futile pursuit. Humanity’s darkest impulses are going to be off-leash here, and elsewhere, for at least four years, the chances of avoiding rapid catastrophic climate change have gone from maybe 20% to 0%, and it feels like nothing matters.

Trying to focus on caring just for myself and my family, but the flame has seemingly gone out.

Not American. Ukraine will fall. Taiwan will fall. Climate change will win. Everyone is fucked

I think it’s pretty clear that the people who wanted Trump never really changed or decreased much, and that now they’re calling the shots.

I don’t think there’s any value in going much deeper than that. They seem to have done it fair and square. There just weren’t as many people who supported Harris.

Not that many of their reasons are genuine, of course. The economy? Please. He’s awful for that, he swore he’d make things worse. We know what that looks like.

But they’re the majority this time. It’s almost a Reagan level victory. It’s exactly what he always wanted. And part of our system is this: if you get the votes then you’re allowed to dismantle things. Because you convinced enough of us to go along with it.

I’m not sure what the next steps are, really. It won’t be pretty. But blame doesn’t seem appropriate, and neither does any effort to “do the work” and learn to try harder next time. The system will not be the same and the tactics we’re familiar with are no longer relevant. Change is here and it’s the bad kind.

So what we need to figure out is how to adapt to whatever that change ushers in. We’ll have to acquire new ideals that fit within the new constraints and we’ll need to do what we can in the service of those, and we’ll have to accept the diminished nature of some of our ambitions.

What are our new values? What does it mean to throw away so much that we’ve made? Who are we going to become? Who will we be able to keep at our side? Who will we lose? Who will we betray?

We’ll find out.

I’ve hated this entire election year because the MAGAs are riled up and I’ve been getting harassment for masking, being vaxxed, and (apparently) looking queer.

(I am queer, but I went back to presenting as a cishet woman ages ago. I don’t know what their deal is)

Yesterday a guy came into work with a confederate flag tattooed across his scalp. They might as well scream everywhere they go that they support slavery.

I’d love to get on T while it’s still legal but the only gender clinic nearby got set on fire.

I think it’s only going to get worse now that they’re emboldened. Their hatred has once again been rewarded.

I feel bad for the palestinians, they don’t have much hope left.

Way to go tankies! You sure showed those damn Palestinians that Israel owns Gaza. Great work!

I’m fucked man. I’m disabled and can’t work, I just got disability benefits approved. I’ve known since 2016 that no “progressive” country will accept a disabled immigrant as a citizen even if they can work. I checked again today and nothing has changed. I stumbled on a reddit thread chastising an OP with autism (plus children with disabilities) for being in a similar position as me and bemoaning it, because why would a country accept a disabled person who doesn’t benefit them after all, fuck disabled people reddit says. I can’t even use my back pay to move countries since no one wants me. I wanted to either invest my back pay or use it to move countries if shit hit the fan, which is so out of reach now. Both of my parents are from Puerto Rico so there is no ancestral place I can run to. I never completed college because of my disability which appeared when I was a teenager and gets worse every year. My (not married and able-bodied) partner’s ancestry is China and I told them they should move countries without me to get away but they want to stay with me even if it means being in this hellhole. I want to have a child when I am ready, but I am scared of a national ban on abortion which would endanger me if I was pregnant. My future feels over. So yeah, my depression and anxiety are in overdrive. Feeling desperate.

My state voted Kamala, they always vote for the conservative democrat and are worth very little electoral votes, insignificant really. I consistently voted Bernie, begrudgingly democrat, and this time around for PSL. My vote doesn’t matter, I know that because of the way the electoral college is setup. Every local progressive I voted for lost to a conservative democrat. This time around there were no progressives on the ballot that I could root for, only democrats I have zero faith in that I voted for anyway. Most of the people around me do not vote because they they think it does not matter and everything is rigged. I mean it doesn’t really matter I guess since Kamala won my state anyway and lost but fuck man. Shit is looking really bleak for me. I wish Bernie or De la Cruz won but that is just a pipe dream I guess. Kamala never inspired me, she wasn’t really a progressive leftist and I did not think she would fix the country. Only maintain the status quo. I can only hope for a revolution now.

MLK Jr was a radical with socialist ideas. There’s so many quotes to choose from during his later years but this seems most apt for me for now:

“If America does not use her vast resources of wealth to end poverty and make it possible for all of God’s children to have the basic necessities of life, she too will go to hell.”

I feel like the not-right will just take it. Just accept things. Go into the concentration camp. Let the government be dismantled. Let laws be ignored.

The right wing is full of bad ideas and hate but they organize and sometimes riot.

Everyone else seems too busy infighting and being smug.

As a non American, the only hope for the world is to let you guys sink and for the US to implode. EU should have realized that 8 years ago and plan accordingly to reduce dependencies but did not.

I can’t even fathom the fascism wave we’re going to get everywhere…

Why did we have to choose the dystopian future ?

I’m unhappy.

I’m going to use my white, middle class straight-passing privilege to get the fuck out of here is what I’m going to do.

What went wrong?

Humanity evolving consciousness.