They are quickly becoming one of my favorite bands.

Boob sweat is affirming, even if my bras get soggy for hours and really stink after a while. Ball sweat is way more disgusting and majorly dysphoria inducing. Just my experience.

Poor financial decisions.

They’re patches. I use estradiol patches and I love them and I want to cover my body in them.

Last week was pretty good despite my wife being in fuckass Iowa for it. This week has blown pretty hard particularly at work with several issues and minor, easily avoidable, catastrophes piling up.

I really appreciate these comments. I’ve written about it before but I struggle a lot with the grief of having missed out on so much on the life I wanted to have. I consider myself unapologetically trans, and I find a lot of strength and motivation in continuing the long lineage of tough and badass transgender people fighting for better futures. However, the fantization of starting over as a cis person and shedding by trans identity if given the opportunity is incredibly strong.

Y’alls perspectives really have helped me connect back with my reality and find comfort in it. Thank you 💜

Sweater, absolutely. I have soooo many lol

The Office

Futurama

The Good Place

How it’s Made

Schitts Creek

Bob’s Burgers

https://www.ricetest.com/rice-test-breast-implant-sizers.html

I dunno why those instructions say to not use the foot, I did and it worked fine.

But anyway, I found these to be much more comfortable and comparable to how having boobs would feel as opposed to rolled up socks.

Next try rice boobs.

I’ve been doing 2 hour sessions of electrolysis every month since June 2025. I’m now finally seeing more noticeable results. It, unfortunately, just takes a long time and persistence. Facial hair is thick and wirey and notoriously resilient. Laser and electrolysis sessions have to be consistent as to treat as many follicles as possible that are in their new growth phase.

It’s a dysphoria that I mostly just try to live with and understand that it’ll reduce over time. I have a pretty new throat tattoo so that helps mask the color gradient caused by facial hair shadow on my neck. I mostly just try to shave as close as I can using tge shaving attachment of my Braun epilator, followed by a normal men’s electric razor, and finally dry shaving prominent areas like my chin or upper lip. If I put makeup on, I use a peach color corrector (since I’m white) under foundation and concealer.

I love my electrologist and I’m glad that I’m finally seeing results and that they’ll be permanent. But I would probably opt for laser if I had to do it over again.

Kimberly, the pink Power Ranger, was my first “do I want her or want to be her?” conundrum.

It was both.

O hai cutie! 💜💜💜

I have a crocheted opossum named Ester and a blahaj named Genny. They’re fantastic cuddlers.

I would love this honestly.

Thaumaturgy. Nothing major, just enough to slightly change aspects of my surroundings at will. Someone tailgates me while driving, now their check engine light is on and their engine is making a weird, undiagnosable noise. A man cat calls me, he now has an unscratchable itch. A kid is upset, now they suddenly taste candy. I feel like there’s so much good or evil that could he done by making nearly undetectable changes to the physical world.

My wife and I just watched I Saw the TV Glow last week. It definitely hits hard but I feel like it would’ve absolutely wrecked me if I was still closeted lol

Got my letters updated, and pre-op blood work and forms done. Blood work was good so hopefully that means everything is set for surgery in December. Last step is getting insurance to clear it so fingers crossed for that. Got cat-called on my way back from my appointment #ewphoria, and got a bunch of extra attention from men in general all weekend. I had a voice therapy appointment also and my therapist told me that I might be the fastest study she’s ever had. At this point, we just shoot the shit for an hour and she picks out moments when my voice drops back into masc tendencies so I can correct it.

Even still, I’ve been battling confidence issues and dysphorias more recently. I had my period this past week which usually nukes my confidence so I know it’ll come back. It also causes my voice to get awfulll. We had a big get together yesterday with a bunch of friends and I really wish that I would’ve been feeling better and sounding better for it. But I’m feeling cute today so I think I’m on the other side of it.

I’ve also been feeling more and more isolated. I have one other trans girlfriend but we’re very different people and I think she gets more jealous of my transition and sees me more like a competitor than a friend. I don’t really know what to do with that. I wish I had an irl girlfriend who we could help each other navigate our transitions. It saddens me that I’ll eventually get to a point where I don’t really have any milestones left to celebrate with someone who really gets it.

Y do they only be growing when I’m in public tho