Was having this conversation with some new friends earlier and was curious. When did you guys figure out your sexuality/identity or whatever? Was there a person that helped you or a particular moment or event?

  • I found out… just a few days ago. I’m still kinda confused. One day I was browsing reddit without signing in (this was a long time ago). There was a post about a gay man. I usually search a lot of things on wikipedia, so I found an article about him, too. Having mistaken the word gay with something else, I was very confused why the article kept saying “with his husband” (I thought it was a typo or something, but it was repeated a lot of times). So, that was how I found the correct meaning of the word… and I did not like it. And I also suspected myself. I don’t know when I started questioning myself exactly. My diary shows the question was there for a much longer time than I actually recall. I’ve reffered to it as The Am I question. Then one day, I was reading something entirely different on wikihow, but I somehow landed on the Am I Gay quiz. The answer was “you’re probably straight.” I wasn’t sure so I opened the page that read “How to find out if you’re gay.” That’s how I found out, and I’m sure about it. I took the quiz more carefully… the answer changed. But I do live in a country which doesn’t treat LGBT people right, and I don’t know what to do. Also I feel so guilty… I used to think LGBT people are bad. I couldn’t have been more wrong. I understand more now, about myself and people like me. Also I understand why my idea of having a girlfriend is the same as I was 7 years old.