Getting hit with a lot of emotions. Some scary and some exciting.

My wife is being really supportive and we’ve been talking through all of this the past couple days nonstop.

Part of me is ready to shave everything and start HRT and feel pretty, but I’m also fucking terrified about how my world will react. It’s also only been a few days but I feel like a whole new world has been opened up to me?

I don’t know. I want to everyone and nobody so I thought I’d scream into the void here. Hope that is ok.

I’m so fucking empowered by all of you

  •  Blahaj_Blast   ( @Blahaj_Blast@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) 
    6•9 months ago

    Your story sounds similar to mine. I was still struggling with the labels so all I could say was “not cis” but that’s a difficult thing to tell someone you’ve been in a relationship with for 10+years “hey… I might not be who we thought I was” 😅

    I’m happy to hear she is accepting and working through it with you. Mine kind of had a crisis of her own trying to reconcile her side of feelings but is supportive and seems more confident in our relationship now, which is awesome. It’s definitely not easy but the help is awesome!

    My therapist told me at one point “you haven’t shown this much personality before” and I think I’ve seen her in and off a couple years now 😅 although, I got an antidepressant combo that may have helped that, and also probably allowed me enough mental bandwidth to realize I was an egg too!

    Also, out of curiosity, did you also spend too much time in egg_irl? 😂

    •  oNevia   ( @oNevion@lemm.ee ) OP
      6•9 months ago

      Girl, I spent time on egg_irl back when I thought i was some sort of open minded cis man. Thinking the memes were hilarious for “some reason”

      Even showed some memes to my wife because they’re “funny” but I “definitely wasn’t trans because of course not!”

      It went from idle curiosity - to being “a good ally” by better understanding the trans community - to “oh fuck this is me?”

      I remember feeling so sure I wasn’t trans and the memes were just quality content 😆

      I know hindsight is 20/20, but damn I was blind to sooo many signs through my whole life.