Getting hit with a lot of emotions. Some scary and some exciting.

My wife is being really supportive and we’ve been talking through all of this the past couple days nonstop.

Part of me is ready to shave everything and start HRT and feel pretty, but I’m also fucking terrified about how my world will react. It’s also only been a few days but I feel like a whole new world has been opened up to me?

I don’t know. I want to everyone and nobody so I thought I’d scream into the void here. Hope that is ok.

I’m so fucking empowered by all of you

  •  ShaunaTheDead   ( @ShaunaTheDead@kbin.social ) 
    3•9 months ago

    Congrats girl, welcome to the club!! I know you’re super jazzed right now and want everything to happen all at once, but I’d recommend you take your time with it and try to enjoy the process. It happens so quickly, and also painfully slow at times.

    Also, because the changes are gradual since you see yourself in the mirror every day, you might not notice how far you’ve come until one day you look in the mirror and there’s a woman looking back at you. It’s an amazing feeling!! For the more gradual stuff taking lots of pictures can help you notice those and keep your spirits up that progress is being made.

    •  oNevia   ( @oNevion@lemm.ee ) OP
      1•9 months ago

      Thank you! I’m definitely trying to keep from getting ahead of myself. I’m wanting to make small changes and just try and enjoy my exploration. It’s been less than a week since I started my self acceptance journey, but I already feel so much lighter and happier. I’m starting to actually like myself for the first time in my life. Just by embracing all of this.

      It can be overwhelming at times though. Especially when I’m tired. It almost feels like I’m crawling back into my shell because it’s “comfortable”. Not sure if that makes sense but something I’ve started to notice.