i got sick again so the financial update and also this thread are late. i’ll get the financial update up at a later point, or i might just combine it with january since there’s not that much to report as far as i can tell

    •  Amamsa   ( @Amamsa@beehaw.org ) English
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      2 years ago

      Years ago, i got off anti depression meds within two months (only later heard that it’s better to taper down over a year). One of the symptoms i got was hypomania; it was awesome! For a week i had energy like never before and after a day of cleaning i caught myself looking around and trying to find something left to clean.

      Kicking those meds was a nightmare, but honestly, that week of hypomania was the greatest i ever felt. Mentally i was fine, nothing weird, but just this boundless energy. While usually, since i have a genetic bodily disorder, i often feel tired and if i do too much, i can’t do much for a week after.

        •  Amamsa   ( @Amamsa@beehaw.org ) English
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          2 years ago

          I hope they’ll figure out what it is. Often, like yours, it can be a very long journey, like with a virus for instance.

          What i learned is to divide chores into small pieces. And when i have a busy day, i try to plan a number of days of being able to take it easy, physically.

          And if people don’t get it, the spoon theory can be helpful to explain to others.

          Yes, i was not trying to say that hypomania is fun for everyone, but thankfully for me, it was a pleasant surprise, though it took a bit of digging to find out what was happening and where it came from.

            •  Amamsa   ( @Amamsa@beehaw.org ) English
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              2 years ago

              For a long time I was very “iffy” about my diagnosis because “how can I be hypomanic if I’m not feeling happy” was an all too common question

              Maybe, as a crooked comparison, it’s a bit like drinking way too much coffee; you feel energetic, but maybe also jittery, and happiness doesn’t really have anything to do with it.

              As for antidepressants; after decades of two kinds of severe depressions, i learned to meditate and haven’t been depressed in over a decade. It changed the way i view the world in a fundamental way and i learned to not focus on the depressed feelings (focusing on them would make it more intense). So, i don’t use any medication for it anymore.

              Thanks for your kind words and have a great day