Yeah. As a small child I was quite outgoing and confident, but I was also super nerdy and as far as being boyish as a boy can be. School happened and I quickly became an introvert and stayed one. It’s complicated to consult those memories: it’s all jumbled, mixed with harsh internal discourse and emotional fog. It left me with a negative charge. Even though I was always unable to violence, I could understand victims lashing out destructively. I’m glad my kid’s school takes bullying way more seriously than in my time. I think rampant bullying can leave reservoirs of darkness all over a community.
it’s all jumbled, mixed with harsh internal discourse and emotional fog
I suspect this is common in people who have been bullied a lot? My family think it’s weird that I have very few clear memories of my childhood. A few events are very, very clear, but the rest is just a jumbled fog. For ages, I thought it was normal for people to not really remember 99% of their childhood.
Yeah. As a small child I was quite outgoing and confident, but I was also super nerdy and as far as being boyish as a boy can be. School happened and I quickly became an introvert and stayed one. It’s complicated to consult those memories: it’s all jumbled, mixed with harsh internal discourse and emotional fog. It left me with a negative charge. Even though I was always unable to violence, I could understand victims lashing out destructively. I’m glad my kid’s school takes bullying way more seriously than in my time. I think rampant bullying can leave reservoirs of darkness all over a community.
I suspect this is common in people who have been bullied a lot? My family think it’s weird that I have very few clear memories of my childhood. A few events are very, very clear, but the rest is just a jumbled fog. For ages, I thought it was normal for people to not really remember 99% of their childhood.
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TW: child slavery
If you don’t mind me saying, reading this bit of your story reminded me of the story of Robert Blincoe
There’s a man who doesn’t remember all the things he went through as a child in the factories.
Also, have you seen Belle?
How has it affected your adult life?