cowboycrustation [he/him] ( @cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) M Trans@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish • 8 months ago
It doesn’t just have to be “oh I’m a man/woman/enby.” What qualities do you have or want to obtain as your gender? How do you express yourself? What does your gender feel like?
So much this… masculine is not in any way a desire of mine. Nor do I myself at all attracted to masculinity. Being in a group of men is exhausting (although it is VERY easy to get caught up in general jackassery and do some stupid shit), and most of my friend group in middle and high school was girls. The “boys will be boys” type behavior has always felt gross and uncomfortable to be around.
I would like to be someone people are comfortable around, I don’t want to be the center of attention or anything. Some days I want to feel pretty, some days I just want to “be”.
Masculinity just feels heavy, clunky, and burdensome.
Masculinity, or man-ness? I like being a tomboy sometimes, but never a man.
That is a good distinction. Man-ness I suppose is more accurate in my case.
I think I would consider myself a bit more of a femme leaning enby currently, but would like to experience HRT and think more on it in the future.
I’m planning on it. Remind me in three weeks and I’ll tell you how it’s going.
Oh I definitely plan to as well, life circumstances are just highly incentivizing waiting until at least October.