this week i am reading When McKinsey Comes to Town: The Hidden Influence of the World’s Most Powerful Consulting Firm and i think i can speak with confidence when i say that i hope every McKinsey consultant chokes on a grape

  •  Alice   ( @Alice@beehaw.org ) English
    8•6 months ago

    It’s been up and down. Moment-to-moment it kinda sucks, because my anxiety is through the roof and I can’t keep a gym routine or take care of myself. I feel like I’m slacking at work because of it.

    But big picture? It’s actually amazing. After years of struggling to find healthcare, my friend is finally starting HRT, and I’m so proud of him for not giving up. I’m starting adderall tomorrow and praying to whoever listens that it does something. I’m in my 30s with less than a high school education and if I could focus for the first time in my life, maybe I could get a degree and get out of retail.

    EDIT: I just remembered that I smoked weed at the beginning of the month. I’m probably going to fail my drug test and things won’t get better.

    •  JCPhoenix   ( @JCPhoenix@beehaw.org ) English
      3•6 months ago

      Like 5yrs ago, I took a drug test for a new job. A few days before they called me, offering me said job, I had taken a gummy or two. Because I didn’t think I was going to get the job. They scheduled me for the drug test, but I pushed it out as far as I could, like 3 weeks, and I passed. Now it’s not like I was consuming THC regularly. It’d probably been months since the last time I’d consumed any in any form. I don’t know what your habit is like, but if you’re in a similar situation, you might be OK.

      And even if they do detect it, that could be a false positive. It happens. Then they make you take another, right? Maybe push that out a little, too, to give your body more a little more time to get rid of it.

      •  Alice   ( @Alice@beehaw.org ) English
        3•6 months ago

        Oh, thank you! Yeah for some reason re-taking the test never occurred to me. I guess I just thought, I don’t know, everything would fade to black and credits would start rolling.

        The trial dose they gave me improved my job dramatically, so I’m going to do everything I can to get a refill.