cowboycrustation [he/him] ( @cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) M Trans@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish • 3 months ago
I’ve noticed that when I used to see myself in pictures I’d hyper assess every little detail of it to check for passing. Now when I see myself in pictures I don’t do that anymore. Anybody else notice the same thing?
Cant say for them, and im sure everybody has different experiences, but hrt is a long term thing.
I started when i was nearly 35, and am at about 9 months. Im just starting now to actually catch certain angles in the mirror where i no longer hate everything and thing hmmm maybe some things are better. Certainly a long way from really being happy, but moving in the right direction
I think the dysphoria distorts my self-perception, certainly about my own voice but I think also about the way I look. The only time I like my reflection right now is little glimpses I see in the reflection off random surfaces like the microwave or my phone screen when it is off. The fuzzy image is better, but a mirror makes me sad.