cowboycrustation [he/him] ( @cowboycrustation@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) M Trans@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish • 3 months ago
I’ve noticed that when I used to see myself in pictures I’d hyper assess every little detail of it to check for passing. Now when I see myself in pictures I don’t do that anymore. Anybody else notice the same thing?
For sure. At first I really needed to be in the right mindset to be able to see myself. I only saw myself in my eyes occasionally.
And now, in transition, it’s the other way around. It’s more like gender dysphoria gets triggered occasionally and wreaks havoc. And I am trying to figure out what triggers this so I can avoid it.
For example a while back I had to sign a contract, so I had to use my dead name. This fucked me up for a good week.