just finished my 43rd book of the year; currently helping administer an idea for a confederation of websites and we just got our Loomio set up
just finished my 43rd book of the year; currently helping administer an idea for a confederation of websites and we just got our Loomio set up
I am probably more neurotypical than you, and I absolutely have the same problem. Don’t beat yourself up about it too much, it is objectively difficult to do.
Ugh that stinks. There are probably tons of indie and other 2D games that would work though? Have any of those caught your interest at all lately?
I’ve been playing a lot of Space Empires IV 😅 Am gonna keep trying stuff. May have another pass at my Itch library. I’m just kinda missing Elder Scrolls specifically, I guess, and though I could play Daggerfall and/or Morrowind, they just make me miss ESO 😅 Maybe I’ll try anyway. scritches at imaginary itch 😟
I don’t even know if the ancient attic wiring up here could handle a gaming rig 😅
Also, making calls and going places isn’t just “difficult” for me. I get actually physically ill. Even (somewhat) medicated I can be stuck in the restroom anxing for an hour before going on a two-minute ride down the road to pick up snacks from the local shop. I will put off a simple call, incurring debts or penalties or whatever, for months or years just because I can’t get myself to press the button to call. A lot of people say “Oh, it’s like that for everyone” but it is not. “Everyone hates phones,” people tell me, but few dread them.
…Unless it’s like that for everyone and this world’s even more asinine that I’d realized. Surely there’s no way everyone’s just accepted being terrified constantly. Maybe they have and I’m the only rational person on Earth, baffled that the people around me think panic is normal and I’m weird for not accepting that 🤔 😮💨
wobbles away mumbling
it sounds like you are really going through a lot, and tbh i really admire your ability to maintain a playful attitude through it all!
RE: the games: I’m racking my brain and struggling a little bit to think of suggestions (not that you asked for them). I remember I was able to get Gothic II working on an old netbook back in the day, so older games like Space Empires are def the way to go!
I’m sorry about your anxiety issues 😔 I also have a (much less severe) anxiety disorder and am blessed to have meds that dramatically improved that for me. I find a lot of times, when I am anxious about something, it is really hard to get going but then much easier once i force myself to do the thing. It sounds like that may not be the case for you, but idk. Coping is a complicated system of tricking myself into starting things before i have time to anxious-spin about it.