I don’t have a pat retrospective on this: when you have things you love, and things change, its only human to get hung up on that and feel very low. At the same time, starting to understand a little that its the having of things that makes the losing of things suck (“lowest point”) makes a small but ongoing difference.

As to the present, I have a job again, live in a beautiful place, healed some relationships and made some new friends, etc. I still can’t bring myself to get a new cat lol. Guess I’m a one-life-one-cat sorta dude 😂. Its not the same as my “old life”, and I still desperately miss it at times.

I suppose my takeaway from all this is: lowest point is all about perspective. You can’t just take a new perspective and feel stoked when things are hard, but remembering that its a perspective can help when you’re looking into what is to you the bowels of hell.