Spoke with my GP a couple of months ago, and she sent out a referral to a specialist for trans healthcare. Trouble is, I don’t have any contact info for the specialist, and haven’t heard a peep from them, so I have no real timeline as to when I might be able to get on HRT.

Dysphoria is really kicking my ass though. Feels like everything is somewhat unreal, like I’m distant from reality with a bad connection - likely a pervasive form of brain fog. This has built up as I’ve gotten older, and really started to kick hard when I came out to myself as trans. Brain is obsessed with transitioning and it’s making life difficult to focus and do day-to-day tasks.

Depression and anxiety have been well under control for years thanks to medication, and this feels different from both. The only thing that shuts up my dysphoria for a few hours is THC, and that’s not a good coping strategy long-term. I’m not sure what to do.

Been doing vocal training on my own, that’s helped. Not interested in changing the way I dress at the moment. I try to do little affirming things every day, but it’s not a whole substitute for E. If anyone has any advice, it would be much appreciated.

  •  Cade   ( @cadeje@beehaw.org ) 
    6•1 year ago

    I’m so sorry you’re going through that. I wish informed consent was a thing everywhere for that reason.

    I’m FTM so my experiences are a little different, but sometimes when I get dysphoric, I try to do things that normally give me euphoria. For me, that’s cutting my nails, listening to dad-rock, or trying to fix something. Typical man things. I don’t know what might give you euphoria, but maybe try to think about stuff that reinforces your gender to yourself, and try to do those things when you feel the dysphoria coming along.