I’ve been wanting to get solar for years but my indecisiveness kept me from pulling the trigger.
I finally bought (not leased) solar panels - I just said “yes” to a flashy sales person.
I over paid for sure, but it’s still cheaper monthly than I pay for grid electricity. I guess it’s a win but I could have saved a lot of money if I shopped around (I’ve checked since) and actually did anything more than “think about it”.
Mine is very similar to yours! I ended a friendship that had become toxic, and I also deeply regret having had to. I thought eventually I’d find another bestie to pal around with, going thrifting and making crafts, but it’s been a lonely 6 years since then. My husband is wonderful and is truly my best friend, but there are interests that he will never share and experiences he will never understand, and I deeply miss having someone in my life who did share those interests and understand those experiences.