Been high nonstop for years. I realize it’s bad for my health. But at least being high feels good.
My future is on a planet becoming increasingly unhabitable, under a government becoming increasingly fascist, doing nothing but working and still not being able to afford rent or food, never traveling, never making real friends much less finding a life partner, water quickly becoming a luxury, and with zero chance of ever retiring.
So why even bother?
Have you considered you might have better relationships and definitely would have more money if you weren’t high all the time?
Weed isn’t expensive everywhere. I just bought half an oz for $30; even when I’m in the middle of a pain flare and sharing with another heavy vaper that will last at least 4-6 weeks. ~$350/year isn’t changing my life if I don’t spend it on weed.
“Just don’t do drugs lol” is useless for anything other than feeling smug; when people don’t have access to quality mental healthcare and their material living situations suck, a certain amount are going to use drugs to deal with it. People who are having a good time already don’t want to be high or drunk all the time.
Get active politically. Even if (especially if) we are all just doomed, we can at least “comfort the afflicted and afflict the comfortable”. For me it meant joining up with a group of people doing mutual aid distributing meals and camping supplies to our houseless neighbors.
For me, it’s just math. The odds of things getting better if I try may be low, but the odds if I don’t are even lower. I’ll take the higher odds every time.
For you, have you considered spite? Live the best life you can to prove wrong everyone who tried to stop you, and do as much good in the world as you can so those trying to do evil have to try just that little bit harder. It only takes one good hit to ruin a superior opponent’s perfect game, and you can only get that hit if you keep playing.
So being high all the time is remarkably similar to being sober all the time because your brain adjusts to what you throw at it.
I took 10 months off and I just read a lot of books.
Everyone is different though. You should probably try avoiding the internet news and try interacting with people in real life. People are pretty cool when they’re not a vague description of bad behavior from a stranger online who wants you to believe an entire category of people are bad.
The news literally exists to make you anxious at this point because it drives engagement.
The fucked up thing is you can know this and still not be able to stop compulsively reading it.
Bro you need therapy
Feel the same way, smoke weed every day. I just don’t want to contribute to such a shit world. Doesn’t help I live in FL. Been trying to get out of this state for awhile now but it’s just so expensive to just live let alone move.
Get mad. Slowly diying while depressed and high is what they want you to do. They set up the system for you to suffer like this. It gives them power and money and they don’t give two shits about you.
Maybe you can’t win. But you can at least be a massive thorn in their side before you go. If you can’t take them down, setup others to take them down. Maybe not this generation, but the next.
Don’t forget to enjoy your life when you can. Without pain, there is no joy.
Who is “they”? You have to find out for yourself. Start by trying to figure out who is benefiting from your suffering. Keep asking questions. Try to make sense of the world. You’re doing good so far.
My guy, you’re a depressed drug addict. You need to work on yourself and your situation if you want life to improve.
We have a lot of problems right now, to be sure, but it is entirely possible to have a meaningful, fulfilling life.
Well, it’s better than feudalism, or 99.999999999% of all time inhabited by human beings on this earth, for human longevity and enjoyment of life.
lol, you wanna wallow in pessimistic self pity, go right ahead, it’s a valid way as any to spend one’s existence.
Not sure what drugs you’re doing but I’m about 6 years clean now. One thing that helped me the most was rediscovering my passion for video games. I guess my advice would be to find a hobby or something to focus on and forget about the world for a few hours.
If you want to feel like you’re doing something productive, get involved in your local community. It’s very difficult to fight fascism at a macro level but building bonds and protecting those in your immediate vicinity makes more of a difference than it seems.
join an organization by volunteering in soup kitchens or something similar. educate yourself and radicalize others while building a mutual aid network, so that you will have comrades in case you ever end up in need. and even if you dont succeed you can at least say that you are helping others.
*all of which can be done while high…
Join Politics.
Win people’s support. Voice your concerns, if they are widely realised you will definately make a difference for people you care for.
You define your own meaning of life. Whether you are Atheist, Christian, Muslim, Jew, or whatever, that is still true. If you want to be high literally all the time, go nuts and have fun with it - but please note, it sounds like you don’t, not really?
Consider possibly joining a support group, to help you through working that all out, by hearing stories of others who are further ahead on that path than you? Plus you may be surprised that you could be further ahead along it than you thought.
And yeah the world really does seem fucked, but so what? Don’t use that as an excuse to give up, if you would rather have more fun standing up on your own two feet. The world may burn (and freeze, and more likely alternate rapidly between both extremes), but you still get to decide what you want to do about it!:-P
Maybe watch the movie Braveheart, as William Wallace (Mel Gibson) gets eviscerated at the end, knowing full well that he could have chosen to avoid it, but instead choosing to value his pride… and freedom. We all die, every single person who has ever lived has died up until now (barring weird freak events like someone time-traveling from the past beyond us into the future:-P), but you get to choose how you want to LIVE.
Therapy would probably help.
One should always be drunk, that’s all that matters.
So as not to feel time’s horrible burden
That breaks your shoulders and bows you down
You must get drunk without ceasing.
But what with?
With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you choose.
But get drunk
“Be Drunk” by Charles Baudelaire, as interpreted by Liam Clancy
