•  termus   ( @termus@beehaw.org ) 
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    I grew up a Jehovah’s Witness and disabled. I constantly heard how once the “new system” came by disability would be healed. My grandmother would constantly talk about how terrible everything is from all the “worldly people”. My parents divorced when I was a teenager. They quickly shunned my mother and us. Then again after our grandmothers death (who went to the church… religiously), we heard nothing from them. They don’t care about anyone but themselves.

    Anyway, once I started Earth Science in high school and learned how old everything really is, how large space is and how truly small and insignificant we are to the universe. It put it all into perspective and now I’m pretty much an Atheist. I know I don’t truly know what is out there, or who created us. But I know it wasn’t some dude that did it just to set us up to fail. So why should I have any belief in that?

      • Funny thing, I’ve been saying for decades that “space expansion” would be effectively undistinguishable from “particle contraction”, so falling into a black hole and getting crushed/compressed by it, would look like… the universe we see, with the singularity being somewhere around the Planck’s length, several orders of magnitude down from where we are (assuming Plank’s length would remain constant).

  • I am not religious, but I often wonder if my life would be easier if I was. I feel like it offers people a lot of things. It helps with networking, and it can help mentally and emotionally cope with life’s struggles. It can give a person a community.

    I can see a lot of pros to believing in something. Of course, there can be lots of cons as well. But yeah, it’s something I ponder from time to time.

      • That’s an interesting question. Hmm. I guess from an outside perspective looking in, it seems like religion can bring people peace. Looking up at the stars by either the naked eye or through a telescope does give me a very small feeling.

        Like we’re so insignificant yet extremely unique in our known world. It makes me question how everything could have come to be. Like how could everything just exist. Sometimes, that train of thought gives me exetential dread, but other times, it can give me a peaceful feeling.

        Prior to my earliest memories of existence, I knew literally nothing. There wasn’t anything. So it makes it hard to comprehend how things could have come to be from the very beginning. They were created somehow, whether that was through a greater being or other omnipresent thing. The idea of all these elements and things combining to create everything we know really blows my mind.

        Going back to the peace thing, I’ve read that some religious people find a lot of inner peace through their faith. I can’t say that I’ve experienced that exactly. But I have experienced moments of extreme peace that are very hard to describe. Almost to levels similar to how people describe they feel prior to almost dying. Just absolute pure peace and bliss.

        I’ve only experienced that maybe once or twice in my life. One time was somewhat recent. Maybe a year or so ago, while I was sleeping. It was very profound, and it made me wonder what other feelings or inner thoughts/emotions could be within me that I have yet to experience or feel.

        It’s made me wonder about trying some kind of psychedelic at some point in my life. I’m not in a rush, but if given the opportunity to try it in a safe environment, I might. I’m extremely curious if that could help me get past some mental blocks with issues like anxiety, depression and some fears I have

  • I’m an atheist, but only mention it when asked. I don’t know what much to tell you about it - as far as religions go, it doesn’t get much simpler than “there’s nothing”.
    As for why, I’m very fond of the scientific method and it’s the only thing that makes sense to me.

      • Check out Chaos Magick perhaps. The centerpiece is: what you believe in doesn’t matter, belief itself is the power. It encourages changing your belief structures so it doesn’t become rote dogma. Fun to play with at any rate; pray to Minerva, sink an offering for Cthulhu, get into established religion systems and then switch for another.

      • I start each day by thinking of three things for which I’m grateful. I suspect it has a similar effect.

        It doesn’t have to be anything profound. Examples include: “we had a nice time picking fruit over the weekend,” “the weather isn’t going to be as warm as it was yesterday,” “I had a nice conversation with the other day.” But big stuff also gets in there when warranted.

      • Fascinating. I do too, in a way - I find it helps to think about what help I need, in a way that is quite prayer-like (I believe ). For me, it’s a way of reminding myself that I don’t have to fix everything myself, not even in my own life. Sometimes good things happen for no reason.

        • I do too, in a way - I find it helps to think about what help I need,

          The interesting (to me) thing is that as soon as I’ve read this, my mind said “duck programming”.
          (For the blissfully uninitiated, duck programming is when a software developer explains a problem to a rubber duck. The solution will often present itself during the explanation after having been hiding in plain sight for hours up to this point.)

          Do.you think atheistic prayers work in a similar way?

          The human mind sure is a fascinating thing.

          • Yes, I believe that’s a part of it. Just the act of formulating “this is a problem that I don’t know how to solve, please help” sometimes starts some kind of problem solving of my own.

            But another thing that “atheistic prayer” does for me is that if/when that thing happens, I’m more likely to notice it. And a problem dissolving by itself, or due to someone helping me, is something I really want to notice.

  • I am agnostic, does that count? I feel like to “say something” about agnosticism would just be to define it. I can say that I started staunchly atheist, and then realized after being a petulant teenager that there was no way I really knew enough to believe in atheism either.

  • I de-converted (and de-baptized myself) from Christianity when I was nineteen.

    Once I was outside of my parents’ bubble, it was easier to take a look around and realize that God isn’t real, and the only reason I was ever a Christian is that I was born and programmed to be that way. I now see my life as finite which makes me value my time and mental well-being much more than I did before.

  • I was raised loosely Catholic, as in know the stuff but don’t go to mass regularly. I learned about other religions on my own, my doubts rose as I saw what a Catholic school looked like, then had a falling out with “God” when a school friend died in a silly way (football to the head, dead the next day). I kept a spiritual side, learning more about different cults, but after learning about the scientific method, I started recognizing the patterns of manipulation and wishful thinking in all belief systems, leading me to scientific anti-theism, or “Atheism”. I’ve considered left-hand Satanism for a while, but I’m not fond of rituals.

    Right now my religion is “None”, with a dash of tolerance for those who don’t understand science but try to, and another dash of fiery wrath for those who attempt to convert me to their beliefs.

    • Is that neo paganism? I’ve witnessed a pagan marriage once and I also experienced Heilung live.

      Have you ever read about how Charles the great forcefully converted many pagans to Christianity?

      I’ve been wanting to visit a local grove.

      • I’m not sure. I don’t believe in the supernatural. But I do want to celebrate the delicate balance of life on this planet. I think the wheel of the year and 8 Sabbats make sense to me. Many of them are already celebrated very near the date anyway (Halloween, Christmas, . I don’t believe in deities as conscious beings, but I acknowledge the ancient traditions of respecting a personified version of a natural force. Sun, water, biology, earth, air, and moon are the mains elements I would acknowledge. I don’t pray to them and hope for an answer - I respect the role that each of them play in our continued existence on this planet. We exist at the mercy of these elements. A way of expressing gratitude when otherwise they may be taken for granted. A thought exercise that is useful for my own mental health. Kind of like karma - I don’t literally believe that good and bad actions will balance out; I think life is better when you try to lift up those around you.

        So, when I close my eyes and feel the warmth of the sun for a moment, it’s as close to praying as I will get. Thankful that solar flares haven’t ended us yet. When I plunge into an icy lake or ocean, it’s as close to praying as I will get. The cold water completely overwhelms the senses and for that moment, I feel I am cold water. And I love water. I will love water even during floods. When I am atop a mountain, I am praying to the earth - thankful that we have not been ended by super volcanos or earthquakes. Similar acknowledgements can be made for wind/air and life/health.

        I’m content calling myself an atheist, but that doesn’t say anything, it says not something else. My reasons for wanting a religion are the legal protections that come along with it, and the recruiting power. It could be a tool to convert religious people - instead of feeling exiled from their church community, that they may feel welcomed into a larger community. I don’t mean recruitment like door to door, I mean naturally, somebody looking for guidance or meaning in life without god would find it. The truth of it is self-evident.

  • I’m of a kind of Vajrayana ( Tibetan AwakeSoulism/Buddhism ) which apparently died-out centuries ago.

    ( I’ve earned Soul/CellOfGod/Continuum memories from previous lives, in meditation: only 1 of those previous incarnations was human, the rest were mostly insects, like a hornet/bee/wasp probably in central Africa who saw a few humans )

    it’s abstract.

    All material-forms, all rituals, etc, are misleading, fundamentally.

    OceanOfAllAwakeSouls/Brahman/G-D/EmitterOfUnconsciousSouls hasn’t any form.

    The old testament had something on that: “commandment that no-one ever mistake any form for G-D”.

    Carlos Castaneda’s guru “Juan Matus” spoke of the real Universe being abstract.

    Basically, it’s Science/Engineering of one’s Continuum’s future-condition.

    Want to be crushed under suffering more? Then crush others under suffering, & wait for the action->reaction, of the meanings emitted by one’s continuum eventually are forced back into one’s continuum.

    Want to be liberated from reincarnation/Universe’s-recycling & all the perpetual cycle-of-birth-life-sickness-injury-death-bardo…birth…?

    THEN all one has to do, is earn shedding SurfaceMind/ego duality ( which Castaneda’s tradition called “Crossing Over” & Buddhism calls realizing of Zen: same thing: ego-annihilation ), so only the 2 more-fundamental minds still are in-play,

    then earn the dissolution of one’s LifeMind, which is our unconscious & our dreaming-mind, but it can be made fully conscious & capable…

    Earning the dissolution of that leaves only the Soul/Continuum/3rdAttention ( as Castaneda’s tradition called it ).

    Once that’s done, then one only has to purify it enough so that not-only is it free from Universe’s containment/perpetual-recycling, but it eventually gets from inside Universe to outside ( which is Enlightenment: dissolution into OceanOfAllAwakeSouls/GreatSpirit/Brahman/G-D/etc )

    There are 3 kinds of mind which obliterator-force can’t understand, from our perspective:

    • Wisdom-seeing-through-phenomena’s-lack-of-inherent-nature
    • Faithing ( surrendering-to, relying-on, & being gratitude-for, LivingSpirit, one’s BuddhaNature, or other LivingInfinity/SoulGuru )
    • Bodhichitta ( immeasurable compassion for all sentiences, incapable of insecurity. It’s what Yehoshua “Jesus” benJoseph meant when he said “be born in spirit”, as NOTHING else comes close to that sentience. I experienced it only for 1-1.5seconds, some years ago )

    Anyways, it’s all self-evolution, eradication-of-the-ego/self, sublimation-from-ignorant-matter-to-pure-spirit, & that kind of thing…

    Just providing this for a bit of perspective: most assumption-rivers/religions don’t hold that there is some mathematical-form/judo required for a someone to get from their current-condition to their desired improved-condition, but that’s essentially how mine works.

    Current condition, desired condition, what is the geometry-of-intent which produces the alteration-of-one’s-unconscious-mind that one wants…

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