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Srs recovery. My back aches from laying on it all the time. Mouth tastes bad. Gas churning in my guts but not coming out. It adds to the ache. Breathing hurts. Both too warm and too cold at the same time thanks to the ice pack in my crotch. Time is passing very slowly
Painkiller burns my veins
Things I’ve found out this week:
- wearing a skirt makes me look pregnant (way too much belly fat)
- makeup looks a lot better from a distance
- eyeliner won’t stick (tried liquid and pencil so far)
- I have no idea how to do makeup
- skincare makes a huge difference
- camisole over t-shirt rocks!
- buying clothes I like is fun!
- still look like a fat old man in drag :(
For the eyeliner, wipe your eyes with a towel to remove excess oil. If you’re trying to apply it to your waterline then idk, but you’re not really meant to do that anyway as it can clog up ducts which then requires clearing by a doctor
Thanks, I’ll try that! My eyes are definitely very oily.
The other problem you might have with oily eyes is creasing, basically as your open eyelid folds up, the eyeliner can collect in the creases.
I clean my eyes and use a very light moisturiser first, then towel to remove any excess. That usually saves most of it, but a little finishing powder or even just a neutral eye shadow will help prevent it too
I think I am slowly starting to develop a transphobe alert. It’s just a matter of trusting your feelings. I’m still respectful in those situations, but I am tired of being caught by surprise by rude behavior.
I (mtf) bought a couple of summer dresses online which is a huge step because I haven’t allowed myself this kind of femininity yet, and now that they arrived I feel awesome instead of shameful!
Now I just need to figure out if I actually like them and how well they fit, I’m kinda funny sized in a way most fem clothes are not intended…
Its really hard to find a dress that is sized and proportioned for our bodies. For some reason clothing companies are positively allergic to making cute “plus sized” clothing. Personally I go for dresses with straps rather than sleeves, the others just make me dysphoric.
Yus! Buy all the dresses!
I’m having an easier time staying sane. Guess I’m healing :D
I’m existing! I’m enjoying gaming again (haven’t been able to dive in for a while, just couldn’t get my brain to sit and enjoy it), plenty of good anime coming out this year that I’ve been enjoying.
Work is work-y. It puts commands into the shell and then it gets the pay again.