Not talking suicide. But, I mean more like an age where you know you won’t be dating anybody and that you don’t care if you let some of your health slide. Get a little chubby, drink some beers that you never did before, smoke like you never did before when you spent years avoiding the stuff when you were younger.
Stuff like that. I think I might get into smoking when I’m more into my 40s or something. I don’t care, life would’ve long pass me by then, it isn’t like I’m going to be a successful individual at 55 or something.
Few people at 45 feel like they’re ancient and just need to hurry up and die, OP. Hell, actual seniors think of that as young and virile.
That aside, I’ve given up on having a proper career at this point. I’m not sure how much I want to go into what happened on my main, but I was pretty much obsessed with making a modest legacy in high school, and I fully expect to just hustle to survive now.
When someone would ask, “Who wants to be 100 years old?” My grandpa would respond, “Ask someone who is 99.” I think that applies here. When will you feel like you can give up - well, why not now? What will be different when you’re 40 or 50? Why wouldn’t you want to be dating? Why wouldn’t you want your body to work?
Things like smoking will make dying a living hell. There’s a difference between “dying faster” and dying horrifically in painfully horrific ways that basically end with you pumped with fentanyl until you’re dead, and that’s if you’re one of the lucky ones.
It’s way more likely that you’ll grow up and realize you’ve been a lot more unhealthy than you thought, even without drinking or smoking. Like, “oh shit, I’m that majority of Americans who is overweight and it actually has been terrible for my body and I should probably change that if I also don’t want to die horrifically.”
My grandfather in law died now at 93. He smoked for a long time. Died of COPD. With modern science and healthcare he could have lived longer. But smoking really fucked up his lungs and his oxygen uptake even from oxygen tanks became so degraded, he just stopped waking up from long naps. Now here’s the fun part. He stopped smoking when he was 55. But he started when he was 13. 42 years of smoking. And then afterwards 38 years of not smoking.
The damage is irreversible.
Well most people get a bit like this after they marry. Are you talking about giving up on finding romance? You can still do it when you’re older but everyone’s gonna be divorced with a kid.
You shouldn’t ever really give up on your health, as you get older you’re gonna need it more and more.
Yeah, it’s like OP is imagining cigarette deaths happen suddenly. They don’t; unless you end it fast yourself you’ll be like the pictures they put on the packages where I live.
an age where you know you won’t be dating anyone
I haven’t been in a relationship for over a decade. It’s just not worth it.
That being said I would never smoke. It’s the nastiest, most disgusting vice people get into.
Feelin’ my way through the darkness
Guided by a beatin’ heart
I can’t tell where the journey will end
But I know where to startThey tell me I’m too young to understand
They say I’m caught up in a dream
Well, life will pass me by if I don’t open up my eyes
Well, that’s fine by meSo wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was findin’ myself
And I didn’t know I was lostFrom Wake Me Up by Avicii
I fear bad health, not cause what other sees, but cause how it will affect my quality of life. I also fear pain. I never feared getting chubby. It was never an obstacle to social interactions. I say eat what you want, don’t overdo it. If your doctor tells you to stop, then follow their recommendations. I don’t think it’s ever a great idea to engage in self destructing behaviour, such as smoking, no matter your age. Avoid messing up your body, and the chances for a happier life goes up.
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Everybody who lives long enough reaches a year when the bucket list becomes the f_(k-it list!
I decided to let it go when I was younger. No, thanks, I don’t want that shit anymore.
I’m a little chubby and drink more beers than i should. I’m 40. I’m in a stable relationship, so not on the dating market.
Also, I have similar thoughts about my professional ambitions. I’ll neither become CEO nor professor, so why bother. Could I make more? Probably. A more fancy title? Sure. But why I care?
I know it might be an exercise in futility, but I still try to keep my system clean. I like being able to do things and if I drink too much or smoke, that becomes a chore
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For me, letting go still means I have to take care of myself. There’s no set age, it depends on your life journey.
Maybe a slightly different take on your thoughts, but you could see the feeling in a lighter way as well. As for the beers, why not get into home brewing? I’ve been doing it for a few years now and it’s really fun. I appreciate the drink and the effect more now. Same goes for smoking, although I would recommend getting into dry herb vaporizers. The taste and effect is so much better. I get what you’re saying, and some of the other comments, but letting go can also just be seen as being more at peace with yourself. You can use substances to discover a different side of yourself, and not necessarily a bad one. Anyway, take it easy, approach life the way you want to and enjoy the ride while it lasts.
