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          whoa… this is super interesting. lowkey i’n curious if it’s a dysphoria thing. i’ve definitely noticed that, since being on testosterone, things function better down there if i regularly errr massage the vagina. but i could imagine that a lot of trans guys can’t or don’t want to because of dysphoria… and you might not see this in pre-testosterone transmasc folks since you don’t have it causing the PCOS effects… maybe it’s sort of the equivent of how trans girls gotta use or lose their dick

          i had a friend who has been super worried about me suffering some kind of horrible infection due to atrophy (she had another transmasc friend who went through that). i was also worried about it for a while, until i discovered the aforementioned relationship re: massage above

          i also wonder if this also applies to transmascs on testosterone who have had vaginectomies… godddddd i should go back to school so i can do research…

          •  S4GU4R0   ( @S4GU4R0@lemm.ee ) 
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            28 days ago

            i made a longtermtestosterone community on here for people who’ve been on it on long time to share their experiences, because i had a similar reaction you did. i want to learn more, but most spaces are people talking about barely starting t. nothing wrong with that. i just am looking for more specific information.

          •  S4GU4R0   ( @S4GU4R0@lemm.ee ) 
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            28 days ago

            the dysphoria is more likely to cause someone to not seek help, which would cause it to get worse. that’s when you see the the scary symptoms. i literally fainted when reading one study about it a few weeks back, because it was too graphic for me. i don’t mind blood and do my own shots, but when you start getting detailed about going inside out – i’m out like a light lol.

            they don’t really know what causes it but it seems to be that whatever hormone your organs are used to producing, if it lessens, the muscles of the pelvic floor, regardless of the type of gonad, get weaker and smaller. these muscles are responsible for holding your bladder and rectum and help push pee and poop out of your body. the bladder and rectum do work too, but they do it with the help of these muscles. so it can present itself as urinary and fecal abnormalities.

            that said, sometimes it presents as pain when bottoming from the front. so there are indeed people on t out there who have no problem using it and are still “losing” it, to use your phrasing.

            long way to say, fuck if i know lol.

  • lmfao i have so many… the worst and most unexpected by far is that i produce so much more saliva. i’ve drooled on myself more since testosterone than like… the rest of my life. it’s fucking absurd, i’ll be working really intently on something and whoopsie daisy! drool. sometimes i’ll even BE TRYING not to drool on myself and somehow it still happens 💀💀💀

    the nose hair really got me too, that shit is a sensory nightmare

    on a more positive note, the increase in my nail thickness. my dad used to give me shit when i was young and female presenting for not being able to do stuff with my nails that he could, since it hurt. well, it turns out that testosterone makes your nails thicker!! so no shit i couldn’t do it… i can now tho

    i do also feel like i need to trim them my nails often, too, though

    the terrible eye boogers… like, i used to have to rub some shit out of my eyes after i woke up, right? but nowadays it’s like, i HAVE to wash my face off after i wake up. i never had to do that before testosterone, i thought people were just weird and fastidious about cleanliness when they talked about washing their face in the morning. no, if i don’t want my eyes to be caked in shit, i HAVE to wash them after i wake up (also, see above re: drooling, when it comes to sleep 😭)

    edit: OH i thought of another one. i have to talk SO MUCH SLOWER on testosterone, now that my voice is deeper!! the words just don’t happen right if i talk too fast… my voice and vocal cords can’t keep up. but this is miserable because i have ADHD and i want to get the words OUT while i REMEMBER THEM and now it takes SO LONG. i feel like i talk half as fast as i used to!!

  •  S4GU4R0   ( @S4GU4R0@lemm.ee ) 
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    17 days ago

    as for something i have personally experienced, i didn’t expect it to physically get harder to create tears when i felt like i was gonna cry. been on t for almost 15 years now. it’s gotten a little easier but still not anywhere near as easy as when i was young.