It’s like being stuck behind a glass wall in my own head - watching myself be stuck unable to do what needs to get done
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just another normal day
Yep, some days better or worse than others. I missed my usual dose time for my Elvanse so today is a no-meds day. Maybe a do little and play Stardew day
I was on amphetamines once and it worked so well, but doctors keep putting me on other shit that does nothing despite I always repeating amphetamines worked…
Damn, why? :( Surely it makes sense to just keep you on the thing that’s been found to work the best. I was once on Methylphenidate at the start of my meds titration which was a non-amphetamine that did work but brought along a good few negative side effects due me so it was agreed to try Elvanse.
The highest dose of that has been perfect for me so I’ve been kept on it…
Hope you manage to get back on the right meds for you soon!
Adderall not working for me 😭
Well, for me it’s like that everyday right now. I think I’m having a sever depressive phase. This stuff also occurs as a depression symptom. But that also means it’s not always always like that for me.
And 20:30 again. I should really cook something, do workouts and shower before the day is over 😐
Ah yeah I can understand that. Though I’m thankfully not going through it at this moment, I’m well acquainted with those depressive episodes :/ it definitely adds to the issue…
Be easy on yourself though, may the food and shower be pleasant for you ❤️
It’s been months. Since perimenopause started it’s been almost impossible to break task paralysis. I went and got diagnosed, got medication, noting is helping. Deal with ADHD before you get old, don’t end up like me.
Damn, have you tried other meds other than the Adderall you mentioned in another comment? If not, it could be the wrong meds for you (Though saying that, I have no clue personally on how much perimenopause adds to the issue, so I’m sorry to hear that 💔)
Hope it gets easier for you though!
I’m giving it another month and then I’ll try something else. It’s my last hope :(
Hope it does improve for you! Did you go through titration (trialing meds at a low dose and slowly increased over the weeks while being monitored) for your meds or did your doctor just give you meds and wave you away? I’ve heard of some people having that happen which sucks…
Like, for me I was on methylphenidate (concerta) at the start of titration and had to report back any side effects (and my blood pressure, weight etc) and each week the dose was increased til the positive effects were the strongest with little/no side effects. I’m pretty sure if I had told them the meds weren’t working at all or not helping much, they’d have taken that as a sign to try a different medication… There’s a lot of different types of ADHD meds and they affect us all differently (or with some, not at all or with negative side effects)
I ended up having some negative effects with methylphenidate, and was switched over to Elvanse and it was a night and day difference with no side effects (for my body - I’m not saying Elvanse will be like that for everyone :p).
Hopefully it’s just the wrong med for you and you find the right one eventually! Good luck :)
I tapered up too, I’m hoping that one will work for me too, I’ve heard several people say it worked for them when others didn’t.
Yeah, it all depends on the person :p it’s been great for me though!
Just throwing it out there, but how’s your sleep?
I have adhd and recently discovered I have sleep apnea as well. I was at wits end before I got my cpap. The combination is a wombo combo for executive disfunction.
Like most neurodivergent people, my sleep is shit and thinly held together with medication and weed. Before my mood stabilizer I really struggled, but it helps me sleep now. Still, I have to sleep much longer than most people and I’m still exhausted all day. Hypervilligance takes it out of my brain.
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Not yet, figured I’d try the medication route first since I had a hormone panel done and it was still reasonably ok. I plan to though, if all else fails. I have a long list of endocrine conditions, I wouldn’t be surprised if it helps more than I think it will.
Something something, therapist asking if I’ve dealt with getting a new psych for meds yet… ;-;
literally me rn
comp sci project due tomorrow and writing assignment due yesterday but not doing anything bc brain is too drained
That’s rough… Good luck though!
Hopefully you’ll have some possible downtime after the assignments? Even just for a few days or so?
The graphical artifacting of mental illness.
I still haven’t moved my standing fan from my room back into storage. It’s fall. The heater kicked on a few days ago and I still haven’t moved the fan back…
But the fan can help to distribute the heat better.
Ehhh it makes too much noise and can’t be made to run slower and quieter. I’d rather stash it.
I hate how deeply I relate to this feeling.
Me every single day
I’m pretty good at pushing past those points. Just pushing, pushing, pushing until I collapse especially when I have someone else to push for.
Anyone know what causes this, other than ADHD?
I think it can be caused by a lot of different neurological conditions (ADHD, Autism etc) and also a good few mental health conditions (Depression, Anxiety etc)
But it’s hard to point to exactly what causes it for each person individually without looking into it with a doctor
Being human.
That’s just life, though recently constant backpain was added to the mix. It just sucks.
I just gotta drink more coffee haha
Oh I wish, that would make me sleep instead 😹
i setup a automation that triggers my hifi to blast music at me to jolt me off the couch. i usually turn it off once im standing up but it allows to create that initial transition im avoiding.
need one of those Wallace & Gromit couches that fling me off it with a massive spring
I’m right now stuck in a fucked up spot with this. There’s a funeral tomorrow that I need to go to, for myself, my friends, the person who has passed and her family. The past three weeks since she passed, from sudden unexpected death in epilepsy (SUDEP), has been fucking fucked. I’ve only been able to sleep every two nights, just from exhaustion, but I’ve been fully focused on saving any and all possible energy to get to this funeral. I’m in bed and my downstairs neighbour who moved in a couple of weeks ago has people over and they’re all kinds of fucked up, loud talking, shouting, stumbles, going in and out of the apartment etc. I’ve banged on the walls and the floor but they seem way too gone to even hear it. I should call in a disturbance report but I’m so far from being able to do that, it would fuck my whole night as much as it does just letting them be. I’m so stuck that I’m crying on the inside but unable to do so physically and it’s all just hitting me like a rain of cannonballs. There’s one thing I hope can help, music, but my earpods are in the kitchen and even turning in bed feels too much right now. I don’t know how to het out of this, just stuck.
Omg, that was my weekend.
