Bonus: what are your goals for the future (doesn’t have to be specific)

  • I don’t love myself in public but I don’t hate myself in public anymore!

    I’ve been tracking my daily happiness on a scale of 0-10 and I might need to redo the scale because the average is increasing by about 1 point per month for the past 3 months because of HRT! Sometimes my voice even sounds great, but generally it’s bearable at least.

    Future plans are to leave Florida for idk where because it’s too hot here and too transphobic. I have a weird relationship with family because of my 8 years of depression and a lifetime of repression, so idk what missing them will be like.

    • I’m glad you’re finding at least some happiness in the worst place possible. I’ve been to Florida many times (not anymore after the travel advisory), it’s definitely…a place (there are some beautiful parts, don’t get me wrong). I’m from a neighboring state and can definitely relate. I’m about to move and leave behind my extended family too. I’m sure it’ll be painful to some degree, but you’ve gotta have some pain to grow.

      I recommend visiting some of the potential places if you can afford it financially before making a decision. New England, Minnesota, and the West Coast are the best options trans-wise. Also helps if you know somebody who lives there before you move.