• maria ~ ( Smorty@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) 
    15·
    3 months ago

    hey. HEY!

    they aren’t a shithead… they tried to connect with pomni… they tried to connect with 🐸…

    they distanced themselves cuz he felt that being vulnerable hurts peeps.

    they r trynna do the “we all fall into our architypes at some point” and atuff, they were trynna keep things fun while not connecting with peeps as much, keeping things light. they tried to entertain the viewers and stuff and they still tried to do those bits with peeps to have a bit of fun and stuff…

    they were…doing their best. they are >:( ! they are >;( ! they were.

    • femtek ( femtek@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) English
      11·
      3 months ago

      Still an asshole, coming from someone that had the same experience as Jax as a kid, I could have pushed people away and been an asshole but all I wanted to do was make others happy. Not drag people down. I still disassociated hard for years, ran away from my mom’s house, and dropped out of school. Went no contact.

      My ex had a friend that had a shitty childhood and would “make jokes” and do pranks but it was always at the cost of someone else.

      • maria ~ ( Smorty@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) 
        4·
        3 months ago

        … u can make jokes and stuff and fall into an archetype and talk to the camera and not be evil…

        i just… got into defensive mode cuz Jax in the series is a lot like me pre… knowing.

        • SuperNovaStar ( SuperNovaStar@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) English
          4·
          3 months ago

          (Spoilers, obviously)

          All the TADC characters are

          Tap for spoiler

          digital snapshots of people, and in jax’s case she is a snapshot of someone on the worst day in their life

          so it’s really only natural that jax is kind of a pos. We’ve all been there and it isn’t really Jax’s fault for being stuck there.

            • femtek ( femtek@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) English
              3·
              3 months ago

              I get it, when I watched that scene my sister squeezed my arm as that was almost the same as me, except I was holding a knife to keep my mom away from me. I was able to grow and become my own person after I left, learn how to be social. Took years to trust and even longer to learn about myself.

              • maria ~ ( Smorty@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) 
                3·
                3 months ago

                i - no nononononononono im not!!! >o< im - im not what u say i am---- im not.

                im not im not im not - u dont know - what if im some disgusting chaser? >O< that would be awful!!! and u wouldnt know-

                what if i - force feed babies with fries before they can digest them? that would be awful too!!! >O< that would be so maddening!!! and u wouldnt know-

                what if im just ugly and - cant really be sympathized with because of that? u wouldnt know… but i do.

                i just - i dont feel pretty. i dont feel like im a “good girl” i - i would only be okay with someone saying that if - … if… okay fine, imma say a thing. ive said it some time before but imma repeat myself here.

                i see that saying “good girl” almost entirely as a sexual thing… not even as a pet name but essentially as just that… which is unfortunate! it seems like a really way to call someone and the qualifying adjective “good” is - well - positive! and girl is gender-affirming. so it should just feel nice to hear. but when i hear it, i just… i - … i , im like “i dont wanna be called that way… especially when the peeps dont know me personally”.

                ive recently received a different name by someone. im not gonna say it - cuz it makes me feel things… not spicily, but… excitingly. so i know what a nice name feels like. and it feels great!!! i get super excited and am happy and - i feel like someone who is worth liking, someone who is allowed to take up space. someone who is allowed to want things even if i literally don’t allow myself to even imagine that.

                … that makes me happy. im happy being called that. i like it. it makes me feel oh so happy. but - “good girl”? no. no, nonono thats not it. that doesnt make me feel good, that makes me feel like - its being asserted onto me.

                (and no i wont tell u how that person calls me - thats my name and i get to keep it… >///< )

                • TotallynotJessica ( TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) English
                  3·
                  3 months ago

                  That’s fine. I’m happy that you have a phrase that makes you happy, even if you aren’t willing to tell me what it is. I’ve known you online for a while now, and I always meant it when I compliment you. your entire vibe is really sweet and it’s been amazing to see you grow into your own and overcome a lot of the dysphoria that was keeping you from being happy. I love how much more confident and happy you seem now, even if things still aren’t perfect.

                  You’ve also never been a chaser because you’ve always been one of us. Most of us could tell before you admitted it openly, ngl. You’re just so girl coded it’s precious

    • FermiComics ( FermiComics@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) 
      2·
      2 months ago

      your the first person ive seen in the wild that understands that jax actually reaches out to people multiple times throught the series and that she only stops when ragatha and pomni both treat her like shes some innatly evil villian in episode six.

      thats literally the first time we see her start to abstract when she realizes that she will basically never be able to fully communicate with them ( i think jax is some level of autistic).

      it sucks even more since after this jax is shown to become mostly chill and stop bullying anyone will zooble specifically constantly antagonizing her for like no reason.

  • arcine ( arcine@jlai.lu ) 
    1·
    3 months ago

    I have gotten marginally nicer since I began transitioning. But I have to be honest, I don’t think I’ll ever be commended for my niceness ; I still enjoy being acerb and caustic, more than I should…