going from the really quirky autistic annoying kid to the too scared to say something for fear of being ostracized, which makes myself ostracized anyways really has a way of ruining someone’s ability to socialize. who knew? 🤷‍♀️

anyways, here’s my new antidepressant. I think this is my… 4th one?

here’s what I did today, flew my drone and once again the motors kept stopping midair due to the shitty connectors BetaFPV used, they’re only designed for 10 plug/unplugs and will cause issues anyways even if you DONT touch them???

I called (which is difficult for me) a repair place to see if they could do the micro soldering to replace the stupid plugs and they immediately said no, and ofcourse there’s nowhere else around to do it 🙃

ALSO I almost lost it down the drain AND the video randomly cut out midair very close to a lake. I swear everything in life is designed to frustrate me. Like Murphy’s law but Quinny’s Law.

then I had a 6 month doctors appointment where they told me insurance is cutting one of my medications. yaaay!!

also I just checked my work schedule for the week and I forgot to ask off for Halloween and am working from 2 to 11pm!! which I guess is fine because even on the queerest holiday i have absolutely no friends to do anything with. Tomorrow I’m going to be on the full (maximum) dosage of my old antidepressent, the new one ‘Pristiq’, a separate antianxiety one, and a second bigger antianxiety one. 4 different ones.

that’s not even to talk about the issue of a partner which is totally just out of the question considering I’m so far beyong dysfunctional that I can’t even go to a community college classroom without crying. and yet, progesterone is gonna progesterone. So that’s just going great 😑

at least the midterms seem to be going well I guess, even if where I live is still somehow red