The question per the title.
It used to be the case, that I learned because I simply loved building and learning how things work (not only limited to software engineering, but also to general science and engineering). It also used to be that I would get excited for every new technical innovation.
But it feels different now.
The only thing keeping me going now is discipline. I learn not because I want to, but because I have to. So like I allocate <1hr each day to learn something new, improve or build something small.
The rest of my time, I spend it on hobbies or life stuff.
I get that (discipline) > (passion + motivation) in the long run, but if I would have to keep doing this for the next X years of my life, wouldn’t it be better if it were a more enjoyable experience?
Like, I’m not sure how long I want to keep doing this.
Anyone else in a similar predicament and if so, how did you resolve this?
You sound like you’re pushing yourself too far. Take a break, allow yourself to chill. Your brain needs time to go over everything it has learned in the background anyway, so it can process new information.
1h a day of discipline is great. but better do that towards a goal, it doesnt have to be a big one. break down larger goals into smaller steps. when you see the results you’ll find motivation to continue and complete your vision.
It’s perfectly acceptable to change what you enjoy over time.
Passions come and go.
Have you lost a passion for learning period, or for the particular subjects you’re focusing on?
Have you tried looking into non STEM things? Maybe cooking? What about art? Not even just the “art” behind them, but the technical merits of it.
Why do you want to learn things? If the reason is “because I have to”, then it’s hard to keep the passion going. Rediscover why you want to learn, and focus on that! Maybe have less structured topics, or spend some months exploring something new you hadn’t looked at before. Recently, I discovered I really like history, so from time to time I pick up a history book to break from the more sciency things I usually study. Or crafts for a little bit. Something that you still see value in but that creates a bit of a break from the usual routine.
I feel kind of similar. Part of it for me I think is age, I am 60s now. Part is AI is too easy to find answers. Part is my time is more parent care andُ house maintaince. Also I have found 60s to be very transitional including a lot of financial stuff. I feel sad about it too. I think it will maybe return if I find more time at some point.
