I’m pushing half a century in an industry that is not kind to old guys. I try to fend it off but every now and then it hits me. I’m pretty sure this is not unique to my life experience, or it wouldn’t have a term :-)
- Lettuce eat lettuce ( @Lettuceeatlettuce@lemmy.ml ) 19•11 months ago
It comes in waves for me. I’ll feel fine for a few weeks, maybe a month or two, then I’ll be deep in the depths for days, weeks straight. Mostly at night, staring out my bedroom window, contemplating the horror of the abyss.
- HousePanther ( @housepanther@lemmy.goblackcat.com ) English6•11 months ago
I have to agree with you here because it comes in waves for me as well. But often spread out between 4-6 months and then I’ll get it for 2-3 weeks straight. It’s very unpleasant and I’m sorry you’re experiencing this.
- Lettuce eat lettuce ( @Lettuceeatlettuce@lemmy.ml ) 3•11 months ago
Right back at you, yeah it’s rough. I am seeking out getting medication for it but we’ll see.
- HousePanther ( @housepanther@lemmy.goblackcat.com ) English2•11 months ago
I hope you can find some healing and stabilization.
- Lettuce eat lettuce ( @Lettuceeatlettuce@lemmy.ml ) 2•11 months ago
Thanks, and to you as well. Best wishes.
- HousePanther ( @housepanther@lemmy.goblackcat.com ) English1•11 months ago
You’re welcome and thank you as well.,
- HousePanther ( @housepanther@lemmy.goblackcat.com ) English2•11 months ago
I’ve just started Rexulti, Klonopin, Chlonodine, and Ambien. Even though I’m only 5 days into it, I’m already starting to feel better.
- vis4valentine ( @vis4valentine@lemmy.ml ) 18•11 months ago
At least once a week. Sometimes almost daily.
- Pack ( @Pack@lemm.ee ) 18•11 months ago
Existential?
More like Exponential Dread.
- Rottcodd ( @Rottcodd@kbin.social ) 14•11 months ago
Almost never.
I used to have it a fair amount, and medicate myself to avoid it a fair amount as well, and then just about exactly 20 years ago, in the span of about three days, I started feeling sick, got more and more sick, went to the doctor and discovered I had cancer, and had emergency surgery. Then I went through about six months of really awful chemotherapy.
I definitely wouldn’t recommend having cancer as a cure for existential dread, but it worked for me.
- Zathras ( @Zathras@lemm.ee ) 10•11 months ago
As I have gotten older, the frequency of episodes have decreased. In my early 40’s now. I would say it occurs at least once every 3-4 months as opposed to weekly in my teens.
- empireOfLove ( @empireOfLove@lemmy.one ) English9•11 months ago
Wait, you guys stop having it?
- 🇰 🔵 🇱 🇦 🇳 🇦 🇰 ℹ️ ( @Kolanaki@yiffit.net ) English7•11 months ago
Every day since I was in junior high about. Knowing that I have nothing to really look forward to except working a job I don’t really want to afford to barely keep myself alive right up until the day I die, alone and forgotten.
- etchinghillside ( @etchinghillside@reddthat.com ) 5•11 months ago
I accept it as a part of living.
- Tigbitties ( @Tigbitties@kbin.social ) 5•11 months ago
Weekly. I’m pushing 50yo too. My industry is dying a slow death.
Not sure to up our down vote lol
- PeWu ( @PeWu@lemmy.ml ) 4•11 months ago
I may be relatively young compared to other guys on this thread, but I’m also a victim of something like this. Recently I’m fighting with the company I’ve worked for over so tiny shit that it astonishes me, and terrifies because of consequences of incorrect actions from my side. I’ve understood years ago that I’m no one and will achieve nothing, so it hits less. This dread also comes in waves, as I was good for whole 3 months, and now to the same old shit. Sigh.
- RemembertheApollo ( @RemembertheApollo@kbin.social ) 4•11 months ago
Not worried about being dead, really. I didn’t exist for millennia, I got my time in the sun, I won’t exist for the rest of time. It hasn’t bothered me.
Dying on the other hand sounds like a painful, grief-ridden, stress filled misery. I really don’t want to have anything to do with a drawn-out death. That’s what bothers me.
- HellAwaits ( @HellAwaits@lemm.ee ) English4•11 months ago
Every time I see a HexBear or Lemmygrad instance post. These people are so braindead that I just can’t accept life anymore.
- Sammy ( @TaleOfSammy@lemmy.blahaj.zone ) English4•11 months ago
Not enough of these say “hourly” for me to be comfortable answering.
Are y’all not freaking out every second or-…?
- Kwakigra ( @Kwakigra@beehaw.org ) 4•11 months ago
Very rarely. Cosmic insignificance, radical freedom, the impossibility to establish or confirm ultimate Truth, and the socially constructed nature of most of our subjective realities did feel overwhelming to me when I was younger. As I’ve sat with these inescapable realities over the years they’re as much facts of life to me as my inevitable death. These are things which are completely outside of my control, so I just accept them as aspects of my reality and worry about what my limited self can affect for myself and those around me. By chance, my being is a somewhat self-aware mind in a human body so I’d like to experience being that for as long as I can. I try to help others out when I can as well. I would like to see us move toward a fair and just global society for mankind, but that’s not something any individual knows how to execute or probably is capable of executing. I’m not responsible for the success of that project and really no one can be, but I want that to happen so I try to contribute because that’s literally the most I’m capable of. For my physical self, either I can survive using the resources and skills I’ve accumulated over my lifetime in whatever context my world goes or I can’t. If I can’t survive, then I’m not going to be worried about anything after I’m dead so the prospect of my death doesn’t really bother me and never has.
- 𒉀TheGuyTM3𒉁 ( @TheGuyTM3@lemmy.ml ) 4•11 months ago
Everytime i listen minecraft music for a while, i have terrible trougts about the future, all the persons i know dying one by one, and everything i know and use today being forgotten somehow.