I worry about money.
My cancer returning.
Ending up in a labor camp within the next 4 years
Have you considered moving to some civilized place?
Not the person you replied to, but:
My Options are:
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Remain in US
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Go back to China, an actual dictatorship. Hopefully Xi doesn’t find all the anti-CCP stuff I said while in the US? China tends to label people who have moved oveeseas as “汉奸” (Han Traitor). I could potentially end up in prison. Also job market has like 10 times more people competing than the US. Also 户口 (Hukou) issues, my Hukou was in some rural village, very shitty place. If I go to a city (where the actual jobs are), I’m essentially treated as a foreigner in my own country. (Also, China revoked my Chinese citizenship already. So I’d technically be an actual foreigner lmao)
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Become… stateless and get stuck in an airport?
Or secret option number 4:
- Hope an advanced alien civilization abducts me? 😏 /jk, but that’s be fun tho
- French foreign legion
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My lovely anxiety keeps it ever changing.
The Internet or the power grid just shuts down one day when I wake up.
Like, yes I know there are the typical fear of nuclear war, or plague and stuff.
But those things, you typically just die.
But imagine you are alive, but have zero access to the internet. Zero entertainment.
I’ll be so bored to death, while also not have the courage to end it (because of survival instincts would probably overrule my desire to die). Its just torture.
If the entire Internet/power grid just shut down permanently, it probably wouldn’t take very long until you (and everyone around you) died. It’s not just your entertainment anymore.
Electricity obviously keeps your electric appliances going, including HVAC. Even if it’s gas, it probably needs electricity to work (e.g. fans on the furnace).
Electricity at a grid level keeps the natural gas flowing. Any backup options would quickly deplete.
It’s also necessary for gasoline, since it all stops flowing if it can’t be billed. Remember the gas shortage because of a ransomware attack? Those systems won’t have power very long.
You won’t have tap water, nor would there be clean/treated water at the source.
Now, what if you had electricity, but there was no longer any Internet? Well, that’s a little better. It’s possible that emergency operations could be implemented (using the military) to keep you barely alive, until things could be fixed. But let’s just assume the Internet is completely gone. Then what happens?
Remember when I mentioned the ransomware attack? Those systems probably don’t have an offline mode. If they can’t bill for it, the gas stops flowing.
No credit cards, no bank transfers, no phones. The public Internet is now the medium for nearly all communication outside of an org.
You can’t buy food at the grocery store, but it won’t matter for long because they can’t order anything more, and the trucks can’t deliver it.
Most people would be dead in about a week, maybe 2.
Fascism & climate collapse.
Not finding anyone to replace my ex in my heart. Someone not finding her and giving her the life we dreamed about.
Climate change and all of the bullshit it will bring before it kills enough humans to start fixing the issue.
money
- Economic collapse
- Being too anxious to work
- Fascism
- Unexpected death
- Singularity
Rent is due in 27 days.
I often get stuck in a frustrating loop of thought when I ponder the point of all of this.
Job, lack of relationship/connection, climate, existing in a semi burnout state.
Climate change, and the generations after me who will have nothing left.
Im really mad and worried about the world my kids are inheriting.