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I worry about money.
My cancer returning.
My lovely anxiety keeps it ever changing.
Ending up in a labor camp within the next 4 years
Have you considered moving to some civilized place?
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- French foreign legion
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If the entire Internet/power grid just shut down permanently, it probably wouldn’t take very long until you (and everyone around you) died. It’s not just your entertainment anymore.
Electricity obviously keeps your electric appliances going, including HVAC. Even if it’s gas, it probably needs electricity to work (e.g. fans on the furnace).
Electricity at a grid level keeps the natural gas flowing. Any backup options would quickly deplete.
It’s also necessary for gasoline, since it all stops flowing if it can’t be billed. Remember the gas shortage because of a ransomware attack? Those systems won’t have power very long.
You won’t have tap water, nor would there be clean/treated water at the source.
Now, what if you had electricity, but there was no longer any Internet? Well, that’s a little better. It’s possible that emergency operations could be implemented (using the military) to keep you barely alive, until things could be fixed. But let’s just assume the Internet is completely gone. Then what happens?
Remember when I mentioned the ransomware attack? Those systems probably don’t have an offline mode. If they can’t bill for it, the gas stops flowing.
No credit cards, no bank transfers, no phones. The public Internet is now the medium for nearly all communication outside of an org.
You can’t buy food at the grocery store, but it won’t matter for long because they can’t order anything more, and the trucks can’t deliver it.
Most people would be dead in about a week, maybe 2.
Fascism & climate collapse.
Not finding anyone to replace my ex in my heart. Someone not finding her and giving her the life we dreamed about.
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I know, I’m just unsure how to move on lifewise guiltwise lovewise
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Yes, for about a year. I’m grieving still.
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Feelings: I can’t shake away the thought that I’ve hurt her deeply. I mourn for the children we wanted to have. The house and the garden I promised. The stolen fertile years of her life. I hurt someone whose only crime was not quite being able to share the same headspace as me. I felt lonely in the relationship due to the language and the alien culture, but since I’ve been alone and moved back to my home country I’ve realised that I tend to just generally live in my head, regardless of language or company.
I feel that my loneliness problem wasn’t coming from her somewhat difficulty in hearing me, but in my difficulty sharing aspects of myself with others. I feel that I’ve ruined my life, and that’s okay, completely self-inflicted… but I can’t live with the idea that I’ve ruined hers too. The thought and the guilt buries me every night.
Closure: we’ve said goodbye a thousand times, and have talked about the above themes, but I can’t shake away the memories I have with her.
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Climate change and all of the bullshit it will bring before it kills enough humans to start fixing the issue.
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- Economic collapse
- Being too anxious to work
- Fascism
- Unexpected death
- Singularity
Rent is due in 27 days.
I often get stuck in a frustrating loop of thought when I ponder the point of all of this.
Job, lack of relationship/connection, climate, existing in a semi burnout state.
Climate change, and the generations after me who will have nothing left.
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