I just wanna say to start this off…holy shit, do I look ugly! What happened? Did HRT make me uglier? Did I get even worse at taking pictures? 😭
I know that the small cut from shaving on my chin makes me waaay uglier, but god damn. I’m really, really freaking ugly…this is way worse than I thought. I’ll definitely be getting chin, jaw and forehead FFS in the future…
I took a walk yesterday wearing my red sweater that I got from mom upon coming out to her. I didn’t think this would work, but I took the advice from @gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zone and wore shorts underneath the sweater.
And actually…not bad at all! I was giggling at my own shadow tho, because my sweater was just so damn flowy and it looked kinda funny. But honestly, this might be the most comfortable outfit yet! And it doesn’t look the worst either!
Now, ummm, me being me, I made this a bit indecent…meaning I wore nothing underneath the sweater, of course 😆. This, along with the strap from my bag, made my boobs very obvious for anyone who looked closely enough. Thankfully, there were no people around (this was at 12AM). Combined with the cold, my nipples were sticking straight out 😂. Surprisingly tho, the sweater kept me warm, even though I was wearing nothing underneath!
The proof is here for anyone who doesn’t believe me…
Thank you, everyone in this community. You’ve been nothing but kind to everyone posting here. The difference between Lemmy and Reddit is…just wow. Never going back to that place.
Thank you so much 💜. Everyone have a lovely day!
I’m going to go dysphorically cry about my stupid face and ugly body now 😭
There are many people who do hope you wake up tomorrow, and it looks like you find new ones every day! I’m one of them but this isn’t about me: I’m mainly glad that some of the physically closest ones are so supportive. Don’t think about the past, E is now in charge of your body and great things will happen to it as a result.
And when you say mean things about your face, I’m wondering where that leaves my cousin, who is very nice and also has a loving BF. Your concerns are valid though and while I don’t think you need any facial surgery but if you do, you should start planning it. It looks like looking forward to your Thailand trip greatly reduced your dysphoria, which really needs to fuck off completely for your well-being. Depression is a bitch, I’m sure everybody who cares about you would love you to live without its shackles, and have whatever medication/surgeries you’d find helpful.