And then… You can actually try the hormones. It takes several months for anything irreversible to take place. That’s plenty enough time to feel that it is right indeed.
Most important thing is maybe that cis people would never come to have the thoughts you have.
I had been depressed and anxious throughout my puberty and adult life, until the bottle I had crafted at age 2 or so. And now I am not-depressed for the first time in quarter a century. And that’s worth everything!
Basically I belong to a fundamentalist and backwards country, I was born and raised in a country that doesn’t like me (and sometimes can’t wait to show it), and I have disappointed myself and people around me in the basic aspects of life. Going for “I think I’m a girl” is a no go every way I look at it. That is, if I am legitimately trans, because my therapist didn’t think so.
Sorry to hear you are in such a situation. A lot of what you said is relatable. Also don’t trust the people in the area I live, so I still semi-try to boymode despite being on HRT for 2.5 years except with those really close to me whom I trust.
He’s good though. And far from repressive. He even encouraged me to try a few things. But, ultimately, he said these thoughts are a symptom of something else.
Therapists and doctors can’t tell if anyone is trans. It doesn’t work that way. There’s no way for him to say that your feelings come from being trans or something else. The only person capable of finding out is you
I very much agree. But, on the other hand, my ability to find things out and decide things has deteriorated over time, drastically so in the past few years.
If I could, I would happily and unapologetically try experiencing stuff as long as I didn’t hurt myself or anyone else. But as things stand, that’s a no go.
Everything you write sounds so much like what trans people have felt in their past.
There is this short booklet published online for free. Please do read it! Here: https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en/
And then… You can actually try the hormones. It takes several months for anything irreversible to take place. That’s plenty enough time to feel that it is right indeed.
Most important thing is maybe that cis people would never come to have the thoughts you have.
I had been depressed and anxious throughout my puberty and adult life, until the bottle I had crafted at age 2 or so. And now I am not-depressed for the first time in quarter a century. And that’s worth everything!
Thanks. I’m going to read that.
I can’t try anything real though. My situation doesn’t allow that. And I can’t get away from it.
Could I inquire, what is that situation?
Basically I belong to a fundamentalist and backwards country, I was born and raised in a country that doesn’t like me (and sometimes can’t wait to show it), and I have disappointed myself and people around me in the basic aspects of life. Going for “I think I’m a girl” is a no go every way I look at it. That is, if I am legitimately trans, because my therapist didn’t think so.
Girl, I’ll give you the official stamp of “we trans people accept you as trans”. *Thud*, done
Be yourself when you’re at home, boymode when out in the public. Your life will be much better. You’ll be the happiest girl you’ve ever been 💛
I would have hugged you very tightly and very long if you were here.
I can only imagine there is something about being a girl around girls that I don’t think being a boy around boys can match.
soo true omg
I’m not good with words. But here’s a song I liked a lot when I was in shoes very similar to yours, not that many months ago: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yebNIHKAC4A
And, well, I still like that song a lot!
Thanks. I’ll listen to it as soon as I find my earbuds.
And you are good with words.
Sorry to hear you are in such a situation. A lot of what you said is relatable. Also don’t trust the people in the area I live, so I still semi-try to boymode despite being on HRT for 2.5 years except with those really close to me whom I trust.
Thank you.
I’m sorry you have to experience that as well. And glad you have people you can trust.
One cis therapist from a repressive country is not the arbiter of who is and isn’t trans.
The fact your therapist doesn’t understand this makes them less believable.
He’s good though. And far from repressive. He even encouraged me to try a few things. But, ultimately, he said these thoughts are a symptom of something else.
Therapists and doctors can’t tell if anyone is trans. It doesn’t work that way. There’s no way for him to say that your feelings come from being trans or something else. The only person capable of finding out is you
I very much agree. But, on the other hand, my ability to find things out and decide things has deteriorated over time, drastically so in the past few years.
If I could, I would happily and unapologetically try experiencing stuff as long as I didn’t hurt myself or anyone else. But as things stand, that’s a no go.
yeah that makes things difficult :/ Regardless of how you go forwards I wish you the very best