• I see myself doomed to go the path I’m already thrown in.

    It’s your life and you don’t need to do anything, but please don’t fall into the trap of thinking it’s too late to discover and embrace whatever version of you is most authentic. As long as you’re still alive, there’s still time.

    • I agree, but in a “stoic” way.

      Some things can’t be, even if only because we may not have predicted that we would want them.

      For practical purposes, I will go with what another commenter said. I had thought of it myself. It may as well be true. Idealization of the feminine, anxiety, low self-esteem, a deterioration of a sense of self.

      Yes, I would have loved to try a whole lot of things. Even if to quench a curiosity, even if to just play. But I know that if I keep digging, and I’d have to dig alone, I will be more and more alone and lonely. Even if there is something very real buried right there.