Honestly, I’m feeling very lost and uninspired. It’s been a while since I posted anything online (hi beehaw I’m back) and I guess I’m just seeking community and connection again. I have lost my sense of self once again and I’m spiraling down which isn’t great.

I just really want to spend some time alone to figure out who I am again. I love my husband so so much but solitude would give me so much clarity right now. Maybe once I get a short break from work I could encourage him to spend some time outside.

Thank you! I fortunately don’t have to work with animal products as much but the knife knowledge is always great to revisit

I’ll definitely hydrate better. I might just try doing a good sip every top of the hour to make sure I get enough during my shift. Guess I need to do more stretches throughout the day though

I read your advice this morning and caught myself in bad posture several times today. Bending knees and feet apart were comfortable while doing all my prep work. I think I still need to work on my knife technique so I get a good use of my shoulders instead of depending on my wrist alone. I do always sharpen my knife though because nothing’s more frustrating than a dull knife. Thank you so much for this!

I unfortunately had a surgery a few years ago and I recently got bursitis on my right foot. The only relief was wearing the orthotics so I thought I’d benefit a lot from wearing them while standing long hours. I’ll look into better posture, dynamic stretching, and more you’ve mentioned below. Thank you!!

As much as I’d love to have some soy sauce eggs, I unfortunately don’t consume eggs anymore. I’ll keep in mind to increase my protein though! That means more tofu soup in the morning :D

I’d love some Darn tough socks too but they’re made of wool and I’m an ethical vegan so it’s pretty much out of the picture. I saw that they only had a few selections for synthetic socks 🥹

It was more fun than expected! We spent 4 hours straight just figuring things out because the colors were just that confusing. Nice pun btw lol

I really wanted a name that starts with the letter ‘M’ because it just felt right. I then looked up “nonbinary/genderneutral names that start with the letter M” I found one with a slight association with my deadname

I like to think of it as little tidbits of memories. I’m sticking it on a notebook gifted to me last 2015. It’s fun to find joy in the little things c:

People value different types of relationships in their own unique ways. Some people value friendships over romance and that’s fine. Maybe it’s tiring to see people looking for romance but if that’s what they need to feel fulfilled, so be it. It doesn’t have to matter to you for it to be valid. Same way that someone can see this post and say “so what?”

I’m not sure if this is eccentric but I have a junk journal and I try collecting little bits of day to day life like receipts, tags, paper, fruit stickers, fortune cookie fortunes, and more. Most of them carry little memories and I just like having them in one notebook

Starting my journey with losing 20 pounds soon!! Finally getting my birth control implant removed today. I’m so proud of you!

I like So Delicious’ s’mores flavored non-dairy ice cream and chocolate cate with chocolate frosting (vegan btw lol)

My late great grandmother lived past 100 and was one of the women tortured during the Japanese occupation of the Philippines. I never really got to know her as much because I was busy playing around with my cousins

Mine would be pancit luglug from the Philippines. My dad would always buy it for me after Sunday mass. It came wrapped in a banana leaf and news paper and tied shut with plastic straw.

I just got hired! Just need to process some papers which will hopefully be quick but I just landed my first job!!

I know this is overused and cliché but it gets better eventually. I had a very similar family situation and I knew that it wouldn’t get better until I move out so I essentially masked and became what they wanted me to be. I particularly have a narcissistic mom and she often projected onto me so I just had to perform to satisfy her delusions. Being two people at once is exhausting but you eventually compromise with yourself and bear with it until you can get into a situation to stop pretending.

There will always be a niche online community with your specific interests. The people you will meet online will stay as long as you make an effort to keep in touch. Even the low maintenance relationships are valuable. Maybe shoot a message to one of your old friends and see where that goes. Wouldn’t hurt to say hi every now and then.

Life is what you make it out to be, given whatever resources you have. Granted it’s not always going to be good and a lot of times it will hurt. Learning to accept that pain and sitting with it for a little helps a whole lot. There’s only so much that you can control. You can try to make your learning joyful again; try to reignite or find the passion in new knowledge. You can try and lessen your impact on the climate by eating less animal products and choosing plant-based options more.

Antidepressants aren’t meant to be a magic happy pill. Start with the small things. Maybe a good depression room cleaning and rearranging things around. A walk in the park. Less time on the screen. Sitting with your emotions. Venting and crying it out.

Yesterday, I would’ve agreed with and just wallowed with you but things got better today. You’re not alone. I believe that you can pick yourself up again one step at a time.

We’re making plantbased meatball subs and we’re probably gonna go enjoy some gas station slurpees. We used to drink but we chose not to spend money on alcohol anymore so that tradition is over.

He’s got the spirit for distributing the wealth. Just gotta figure out a safer way